But you look good !!!!!!!
if I hear that again I may just choke someone!
On the positive side it’s good to know I haven’t lost my skill of applying make up 😳 If only people could see me from the inside, they would have some understanding.
I have been absent for a few days as despite giving you the facts I also like to keep it positive. I’ve had a little issue with that this week, so kept it to myself.
I would not wish a chronic illness on anyone. Nobody chooses to feel like this. I would give anything not to feel overwhelmed, exhausted, in pain and unable to think clearly. I honestly thought it was all behind me, I knew there was a chance of flare or relapse, but it wasn’t going to happen to me !!!!!! I don’t have time for this %#}> !!!!!
Believe me I am doing all that I can to remedy this, unfortunately the main remedy is rest. So rest I must. Ironically, it is 2 years on Monday since I had to take my first block of time off. Wow, I thought I’d come so far, I did……this is just a little detour down a ‘no through road’……I will get to the end, turn around and start my way back……I promise.
Until then you need to know…… I may rely on a few people more than normal, I may ask for your understanding, even if you don’t really get it. I will ask for time to rest and restore. No, I am not lazy, trust me, I would if I could…….at present, I can’t. Learning the warning signs and listening to my body, knowing my limitations……no they are not always there, some days are better than others. We don’t have good days, we have better days. Don’t keep asking me how I am, I don’t like having to lie to you……pretending to be ok is exhausting in itself.
I can promise you this…. I will not give up or give in. I will do what I can, when I can. If I say no, it’s because I have to not because I want to disappoint you or let you down. I will give you 100% of me. Some days I may only be running at 20%, but I will give you 100% of what I’ve got.
Lastly, thank you for those that support me. A message, a smile and a reminder that I am still me despite what I’m going through. These things mean everything to me……☀️😊 They remind me that I can never give up.