No matter how much I ache, how exhausted or how depleted I feel I know I have to keep going. It’s very easy when you feel this way to curl up into a ball and shut the world out, but I know I shouldn’t.
I have learnt the art of going into hibernation and yes, I actually enjoy it from time to time. I don’t stay there for long. It’s funny, going back 3-4 years I was always out and about, not really wanting to spend time at home. Home wasn’t my peaceful place. Yes when I was with my son I was extremely happy, but everything else about home was bringing me down. Now…….I crave to spend my time at home. It is all me. It’s calming, uncluttered and the only place I let my defences down and totally relax.
As always I will keep moving forward one step and one day at a time, no matter how overwhelming it feels or just how slow I move.