Today I succumbed to the inevitable. I was very honest with myself. I said ‘ self, you’re screwed’ !!!!! Yep, temporarily I’m sure, but screwed nonetheless.
As I have shuffled and stumbled my way through the past few days, I realised what a danger to myself I had become. I was heading for a fall. I can make a perfectly good fool of myself standing upright, no need to be sprawled out on the floor. I have no idea how long my current, very unsexy, gimpy walk will last, so better to be safe than sorry.
So here is my pretty, shiny new ‘thing’.
It’s job is to stop me knocking other people off their feet and safe out of harms way while keeping me upright. Of course it may come in very handy if I don’t like you………I can give you a gentle tap to make it known 😂😂😂😂😂
Yes, I am summoning as much humour as possible in what is not a funny situation. My goodness, I was a dancer, my body was capable of so, so much and yes, I took it all for granted. I may not get back to dancing as I did in the past……but a slow waltz around the dance floor would be very nice indeed 😉
Frustration levels are very high as reality kicks in. But……… This is not in any way where this will end, it doesn’t make me a failure. It is just a small backward step in what is still a very long road that is my life. This will not beat me, it has and will slow me down a tad, but will not stop me forever.
Is there a morale to this story……….yes !
No matter what obstacles are put in front of you, own them. Admit your limitations honestly and look for different solutions to keep moving forward no matter how slow. Be open and honest with those around you. If you are not coping, tell them. Family, friends and co workers can only help if they know you need it and you are not too stubborn to let them. Reach out to the ones who can help……….if you don’t, you are only making it harder on yourself and those around you.
As always……one step, one day at a time.