Well it may come as a shock to some, but I have always been a little outspoken! 😱😂😁 Self confident, yes, arrogant, no. My self confidence has only been for the things I knew I was capable of doing. Over the past 10 years that list has grown in ways I never dreamed possible. You really can teach an old dog new tricks if you give it the confidence to do so.
For a long time, I lost my voice. Oh hell, let’s be honest……I never lost it, I allowed it to be hushed so much that it felt like it was going to be lost forever, with almost disabling consequences. But it’s back, first barely a whisper to what today, at times, almost feels like a roar. With this new and improved voice, I have learned so many things about myself that I never knew.
I learnt that I can do it all myself, by myself, for myself. I’ve learnt what I want or more importantly what I don’t want from others and from my life.
I am not needy……but I admit to being a little wanty!!!! I know that’s not a real word, but to me, in this context, it’s completely acceptable. 😁
I don’t need someone to tell me I’m beautiful or sexy or intelligent or capable to make my day. My existence and acceptance of self does not depend on what anyone else thinks or feels.
Do I want someone to tell me all those things? Well, simple answer yes, of course I would. It would be nice, but in no way necessary for My survival.
I don’t ‘need’ someone to save me or finance me, I am more than capable of doing that for myself. i don’t ‘need’ someone to take my hand and lead me blindly into their future.
I simply ‘want’ someone who sees that I can accomplish all these things alone, but cares enough to not want me to. Someone that will take my hand and trust that we can walk side by side without dependence. I now know my worth to myself and trust that that knowledge will continue to grow. One thing I do know is, I will never compromise my wants or my value for anyone ever again.
Not all single women are damsels in distress needing a knight in shining armour on a big white stallion……..
I myself would be happy with a tin lid on a donkey as long as I was treated with respect, honesty and integrity.
So this is my fairytale ending…….if and when it happens. But I won’t die holding my breath waiting. I will simply stand strong and independently owned and operated. My shoutout to everyone is to know your worth and be prepared to only accept those into your circle that recognise and appreciate it. These are the people that will reflect what you are in themselves. Learning this is not selfish, it’s necessary for you to be able to give freely of yourself, without restrictions or sacrifice. By all means be a giver, but don’t ever allow yourself to be taken. Life is a series of give and take and works best when it’s done on even ground. Be confident in your self enough to ask for what you want and more importantly what you deserve. If you don’t ask, you’ll never know and life is way too short for that. Somewhere out there is someone just waiting to be asked……….
Get your love on.