Well it’s been a while……
Hi, how is everyone?
Sorry I’ve been so absent. Lots happening.
Change of job title. After 11.5 years on the shop floor I have relocated to head office in a Customer Care role, both internal and external. I’m as happy as a clam. Never thought of myself as an office person but I’m so comfortable being there…..even I am surprised.
I still have some loose ends to tie up from stores but my time dealing with operations is slowly dwindling down. I miss my store teammates however they are only a phone call away. Also planning a get together very soon.
Life changes are important.
Over the past 2 years I’ve become single, a grandmother, moved house, lost my dad, lost friendships, gained friendships and rethought my purpose, both for myself and for others. Now the change of job and location completes a cleansing cycle, a purging if you like of the old me.
As a person my values and beliefs remain intact, the core of who and what I am will never change. How I let others in and interact however is another story.
I was alway the ‘yes’ girl. Do anything that was asked of me whether I should or not……well not anymore. I remember one of my first sessions with my psychologist her telling me I needed to learn to be selfish. Me, selfish???? It was a term I could not relate to. Oh but now I understand.
I put me in the picture of everything I am asked by others to do. I even say no these days from time to time. I cherish my alone time, my me time.
Don’t get me wrong, I am at the core an extremely social person……but as time goes on I enjoy the peace that comes with bring alone.
It took me a long time to accept and enjoy my own company. After all, I was taught for many years that I was nothing, had nothing to give. As I’ve said before, you hear it or feel it often enough, you tend to believe it’s true.
I have so much to offer people but these days on my terms.
I watched others reactions of slight disbelief when I have said no to a request. It proved to me that I had said yes way too often.
Those people who have stuck by me, seen the changes, I believe for the better……encouraging me to follow my instincts I thank you…….you have helped me to become a much better person.
For those that couldn’t stay to continue with the new me, I’m sorry…….but I need to do what’s right for me.
I’m loving my new way of life………
And so the journey begins.